I’ve thought a lot about what it means to be here in Hawaii and embrace the lifestyle. It’s most definitely not for everyone. Even in paradise you have your problems. Wherever you go, there you are (yes YOU!). What’s caused a little sadness lately is I’m not appreciating what I have here as much as I used to. And to live here, you have to. Being so far from the mainland, high costs of living and the lack of “stuff” isn’t worth it otherwise. People come here for the lifestyle and cultural shift from what most of us mainlanders are used to.
Seattle last week was refreshing. Going to the mainland usually stirs up different feelings: gratefulness for being here and resentment for being so far away. And not just in terms of distance. It’s not being able to just take off and drive for hours and hours(unless you want to go in a circle); running into the same people everywhere when you feel like being anonymous; culture beyond Asia and the South Pacific; the smallness of it all. But I find despite all those things, it’s worth it to stay. The bigger question is how could I back to a life of trying to live the American Dream when it’s really not a dream at all? I see it as a trap if anything. Being in a place that values friends and family (ohana) and thinks surfing in the afternoon is more important than getting ahead at work: I love it.